what the fuck
why am i being treated like a date rapist
stew seems to think
that i took advantage of beth
doesnt seem to realize
that beth & i did this 50/50
why am i being blamed
for flirting with beth
and being flirted with by beth
and pushing a little further
and finding out she wanted to go further as well?
what the fuck!?!?
now the only people that seem to care about me
are tom & christine
but beth hasnt spoken to me for a while
neither has stew
but todd did talk to me when i went to TRU to get my paycheck
what the hell am i supposed to have done that was so bad, so evil?
i took a gamble, and it worked out
until others got pissed
now im alone. again
more alone than before
why is it when my relationships fuck over i end up worse off than before?
maybe i should just not fucking goout with anyone
ever
what the fuckam i supposed to have done??
things happened, stew. at least it wasnt you
see a girl for a week, then lose everything you cared about
even your best friend
i hope youre all fucking happy
7:15pm. 1/3/97