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waxing philosophical

id be lying if i said something interesting happened today

got up around 1:30pm

milled around

played C&C with my brother for maybe 2-3 hours

(i kicked his ass)

but then again he hasnt had as much practice as i have

i finished Rendevouz with Rama today

good book

(stew lent it to me)

im going to read the next book

although stew warned me it isnt that great

i had a strange feeling of happiness today

thinking about what the results of my talking to amy will be

worst case scenario?

best case scenrio?

fat chance of that last one, but who knows

talked to my sister today

shes been reading my journal entries

(they're compiling them into a book 8>)

suggested i start out with "you were in my dream" or something to that effect

im not sure what ill say at first

maybe hi hows it goin' whats your name what are you doing tonight etc

after i know if theres a chance ill let her know about the dream

sigh

i feel weird trying to guess what will happen

'cause if it fails ill be crestfallen

so im trying not to dwell on it too much

but since i have few distractions during the day, i think about it a lot

anyway...

ill be up at media play tomorrow

getting an application at the video world near it

so might as well stop in

do some more stalking

heh

i have a lot of driving to do tomorrow

collecting apps

hoping to get a job

i need money badly

hmph

shed better be there tomorrow, i dont want to dwell on the possibilities anymore

hope for the best!