well i did it
sort of
i wrote a little letter for amy
but me, the big coward
had christine give it to her
im kicking myself for not being braver
'cause ive read thats what females like
men with confidence
and i have the backbone of an invertebrate
heres the little note
okai this is going to sound really pathetic...
I am not a psychopath, at least not clinically...
Hi hows it goin, my name is Gary A. Hanson. I am a 21 year old film/video student not currently in school. I had a dream on the 15th/16th where I saw, well, you. I wasnt sure what it meant, 'cause I rarely remember my dreams and I had never seen you before. Then on the 18th, I was in Media Play and I saw you. Fit the physical appearance. So...Ive been trying to build up enough courage to actually speak to you, but I cant seem to muster it. Personality fault. I dont even know your name. So I came up with this brilliant/moronic idea. So if you want to you can can call me, Im usually home until around 9:30pm (thats when I go drink coffee & smoke at Dennys in CP), or if youre all "wired" you can email me and/or check my web page.
information
home phone : xxx-xxxx
email : pathetic@earthlink.net
web page : http://home.earthlink.net/~pathetic
oh yeah, in case youre not sure what I look like, im 5'6", I have short brown hair and a red beard, and I wear a grey leather jacket with soviet pins on it. Ive actually spoken to you before, but only in a clinical businesslike manner.
so hopefully she'll call and everything will work out...
pleaseohpleaseohpleaseohplease 8>
if not...
at least i put in an effort
what little effort it was...
ive thrown the dice
now i get to see if my gamble pays off
or, like when i gamble,
i get to see if i gambled correctly
stew lent me rama II today
and warned me that i might not like it
shrug, i need something to read
im a little too anxious
about the success or failure of the note
to write much tonight
but itll be a fun few days in my journal
watching the story unfold
its good to be alive 8>
south central cp in the mother-fuckin' hisouse, biatch!