i dont know
whenever I get bad feelings about a relationship, it invariably goes to
hell in the proverbial handbasket.
if there is a constant in my love life, it is whenever there is a period
of absolutely no contact, say they go to college (jenn)
or go on a family vacation for a week (sarah),
the relationship just falls apart when contact is resumed.
one thing I cannot stand is people who are depressed until they start getting
sex on a semi-regular basis. sex is NOT that
important in life.
im not sure I believe in that statement, but it is one of my sayings. maybe
I said it cause I was jealous.
or i said it to impress the chicks
what chicks
I dont know why I let myself fall in love again though. after the whole
sarah thing I said I no longer believed in romantic love and id never be
in love again. but I guess I was lying to myself to help the healing process.
or I was just saying that to be a martyr and pick up sympathy from the
chicks.
what chicks
I think my problem is that I dont know what romantic love is. never experienced
it, thought I did, but isnt love s'posed to last forever? and every time
I thought I was in love, it fucked over and burned away...leaving me with
the scars...
the scars. funny I should use that phrase.
maybe I should take a photo of my arm & scan it, just so you know why
I thought that was amusing.
8:14pm, 12/30/96