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a very late entry
today is the 16th
about 7:45pm
nothing much happened yesterday
went to dennys
stew
eric & kristie showed up later
big discussion on america
culture, society, etc
i wish i could have been more involved
but i felt like i was passing out the entire evening
i think im coming down with something
im tired of getting sick
whats the use of being sick when there isnt any school to stay home from?
started reading a book today (16th)
Steinbeck : A Life in Letters
pretty interesting
i feel better reading something i havent read before
and it isnt a sci-fi book
lately i feel ive been trapped in as fantasy world
that i havent used my analytical skills in so long that they're gone
its good to read real literature
played Red Alert today
great game, very worthy prequel to Command & Conquer
i love soviet artwork
in fact, i love all imperialistic art
propaganda, the like
its a very...blunt & functional form
also played a demo of SkyNet, the add-on/sequel to Future Shock
kinda like a Doom-game in the Terminator universe
but a bit more in-depth
more complicated too
tom & i hooked up the two computers (gateway p5-90 and generic 486/DX2 66) in my house and played Command & Conquer & Duke Nukem 3D over a serial cable on monday(?)
tried to play red alert but the 486 cant run it
stew will be getting his new hard drive soon, so finally i can play against a human.
i really havent done anything for a while
being in debt sucks
ive been trying to get myself to write again
but i cant think of anything i can write about
only when a girl leaves me
do i actually have something to say
pathetic, isnt it? i write my best when im in that emotional whirlwind of post-relationship depression
sometimes i feel like a martyr
to the "nice guy" that never gets the girl
but i have "gotten the girl" before...
i just wish
that stew & tom would be discovered by two nice women
i feel guilty on the rare occasion that i have a gf
and they dont
id like to buy the world a coke...
i doubt im making much sense right now...
i had a strange feeling yesterday
was watching star wars on video
observing it carefully
and i felt fear
about the upcoming special edition
im worried that they will have replaced scenes which i love
im hoping that they have just added to the effects
not replaced & redone them
well, ill know on the 31st
stew told me last night
that theres a 3d fighter game in the works
based on characters from the star wars universe
i think george lucas wants money badly
thats the stupidest thing i have ever heard
in the beginning, lucas controlled all merchandise related to the films
to make sure all had the same high quality
i doubt hes watching the licenses very carefully
if this fighter game is coming out
the world gets stupider
and i fear falling with it
1/15/97 & 1/16/97