NO, NOT THE MIND PROBE

sheesh

went to the birthday party of one of my fathers coworkers daughter

21st birthday

whoa

iowa preps. scary.

had 5 free beers, but still

i looked over their cd's.

the majority of the titles were garth brooks & boyz II men

AAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!

frightening

ill stick with my coffee house friends

usually just me, the employee with long hair (i think his name is nate but i might be wrong), and this other guy who cycles up there with his young son. the guy blew his thumb off with a dry ice bomb. looks gnasty, took his bandages off yesterday.

bought & read "do androids dream of electric sheep" yesterday.

odd story. the differences between it and blade runner were...odd.

(blade runner was based on some of the story)

characters were altered slightly, names werent changed at all

and now that i know both stories, i think blade runner was better.

on a spiritual level

the book had deckard, who was not the best android bounty hunter, just one of a handful who took over the best ones bounty list, offing all the androids pretty quickly, then having a sort of revelation.

i prefer blade runner,with the climax where rutger's character roy baty proved that the replicants do indeed evolve emotionally, and have souls.

the tears in the rain speech was a much more satisfying ending than deckards wife ordering android flies to feed the android toad he had found.

but i guess that electric sleep was more of a statement on society

and blade runer was a statement on the definition of a soul

anyway

a 40th anniversary edition of On the Road is coming out in august

i cant wait to get my grubby little protrubences on it

need to read something uplifting.

at least, it was uplifting to stewart

i really miss him now, in this environment where i have a lot of time for self-reflection, stew would be the perfect person to talk to

tom should be back from japan around now

id like to talk to him, too

what id really like, though, is to go back to clifton park for a day, tell of all the alien-ness of iowa, and come back

this is my home now, whether i like it or not

and i think i do like it

im more...relaxed

more at peace with myself

and thats all that matters, right?

May 31st