middle of the day, middle of the week
wednesday, february 19th 12:51pm
ive been wondering why i havent felt like doing journal entries
its because the journal is a conversation with myself
my hopes & fears & thoughts
cause i really didnt have anyone to talk to
but since i met rhiannon
and she put the effort into getting to know who i am
as opposed to who i appear to be
i talk to her
about my hopes & fears & thoughts
she really is an amazing person
a great friend
and a very beautiful young woman
and im glad that she enjoys my company
shes been able to, at least partially, get me to accept more about myself
she told me that i shouldnt feel pathetic about the fact that ive been hurt by pretty much every relationship ive been in
she said its because i care so deeply that when things go wrong i feel the pain twice as much, and i blame myself
and thats not bad, i just need to stop blaming myself
she told me
that ive shown her that there are good people in the world
and that i have one of the kindest hearts shes ever seen
(thats debatable)
she really is something
and i hope that our relationship lasts a long time
but if things go wrong we will still be great friends
.
anyway
i apologize for the slowing in entries
but i have another outlet for my psyche
ill still update once a week at least
keep watching the skies...