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waxing philosophical

middle of the day, middle of the week

wednesday, february 19th 12:51pm

ive been wondering why i havent felt like doing journal entries

its because the journal is a conversation with myself

my hopes & fears & thoughts

cause i really didnt have anyone to talk to

but since i met rhiannon

and she put the effort into getting to know who i am

as opposed to who i appear to be

i talk to her

about my hopes & fears & thoughts

she really is an amazing person

a great friend

and a very beautiful young woman

and im glad that she enjoys my company

shes been able to, at least partially, get me to accept more about myself

she told me that i shouldnt feel pathetic about the fact that ive been hurt by pretty much every relationship ive been in

she said its because i care so deeply that when things go wrong i feel the pain twice as much, and i blame myself

and thats not bad, i just need to stop blaming myself

she told me

that ive shown her that there are good people in the world

and that i have one of the kindest hearts shes ever seen

(thats debatable)

she really is something

and i hope that our relationship lasts a long time

but if things go wrong we will still be great friends

.

anyway

i apologize for the slowing in entries

but i have another outlet for my psyche

ill still update once a week at least

keep watching the skies...